" I just wish things to stay the way it is now, i don't want it to change anymore. "

Tired of all those changes, sometimes, i even wonder why things do even change, why can't it just stay the way it is? What make it worst is that, i don't even know why and when did it change.

As time goes by, i don't even know what happen at the starting that causes everything to be like this anymore, but what i know now is, i'm going to try my very best and not going to push you away anymore, i hope you can do the same thing too. I don't care whether you are going leaving now or later, i just want the happy memories to stay within us, the common memories that we both have shared. I know said is always easier than done, but if you never try you will never know.

Whatever happened has already happened and we can't rewind back the time and stop everything from happening, so others will just say continue and move on then, but i don't know why i think i'm somehow confused and i'm not sure of certain things, i felt lost. But whatever that i have said to hurt you and whatever that you have said just keep going around and around in my head and mind, everytime. I don't know why, maybe i'm just feeling gulity or sad?

To be honest, when i read your post, i don't know why, i just feel like hugging you the next minute i saw you, cause i know i have hurt you and i wanted to tell you in your face that i'm sorry, really very sorry, but whenever i see you, i just don't seem to have the courage to do so, cause i know i don't want to admit that i hurt you just because you are really important to me.

To me, hurting the person that is important to me is like, something unbearable, and at that point of time, i felt like, why am i so stupid?! What did i just do?! And i felt like crying. I feel like crying because i know i have hurt you without realising it myself, at that point of time.

I know, very clearly in fact.

I just hope everything will turn out better, you know i love you.