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Thursday, August 19, 2010 @ 9:01 PM


" Sometimes i just wish i can sit on the railing and play with either ballons or fly a kite, enjoying the carefeel-ness for the moment. "

Tired and sleepy ttm today.

LEARNING @ HUAYI; Was late for it, due to human jam and was like getting scolded for it -.- Bullshit.
ENGLISH; Can`t remember what happen.
CHINESE; Did compo writing, i think i did badly for it -.-
RECESS; Ate with usual clique :)
MATH; -sigh- So-so :'(
POA; Had test, okayys, i think i did this badly too, this will gonna be the first poa test im going to fail :'(
PE; Head for swimming lessons, keep taking pictures in the toilet with peoples :)

Ate my lunch, head for a math and training afterwards, leg fucking pain, walk until like penguin like that x.x
Bubbletea shop afterwards, -no comments-

Reach home around 7pm plus.

" I didn`t know what to say, i didn`t know how to react, i hope you will be there and give me a pat on the shoulder to show your concern and console me. To me, i always feel that you are treating me good is because you have to not because you want to, why do i feel that way? And always, i think sooner or later, you will leave me for good. "

I don`t want to make you feel that im forcing you, but whenever i saw you telling others the things that i don`t know at all, the insecure feelings will come and again i will get angry and upset.
It`s not that i didn`t want to join in the conversation, in fact i wanted very much to join in, just that i didn`t know what to say. Isn`t it more awkward if i was there, just listening to what you guys are saying and yet i didn`t know what to say to join in? There`s like no way for me to blend in, no way.
Maybe that`s just my way of thinking, and i know it very well that you will be there for me, but it is just that i need time to overcome the wall which is inside me, blocking you out.





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