Friday, January 7, 2011 @ 11:58 PM
You will never ever understand how i feel, you will never ever know how afraid i am, cause i know your attention wasn't on me anymore. Your concern wasn't on me anymore. In short, you just simply don't give a fuck about me. No matter how sad and how unhappy i am you ain't the first person that is there to give me your concern. Maybe it's because we think we are close, but actually we ain't that close yet. So we tend to miss out some of the stuffs which we didn't see or know. For example, the actions. From your actions, i know who is important to you while who isn't that important.
Someone once asked me, " Your mouth is smiling but why your eyes look all sad. Why? " I answered, " Cause i'm trying to pretend. Pretend that i'm fine. "
Saturday, January 1, 2011 @ 8:51 PM
" Always, remember that. When someone leaves it's not only the person that leaves that have fault. You need two hands to clap. "
" To me you are just a double sided face bitch, that's all. Nothing else. Hmmmm, i should be glad that at least you made me the centre of your life and i'm always appearing in your mind. As if you don't think about me, my bad stuffs, don't talk about me, my bad stuffs. I wouldn't be on your mind and be the centre of your life. "
Sunday, December 5, 2010 @ 10:40 PM
" This time round, i won't talk to anyone about this anymore, i will just do things according to my way. Just this time, once. I will believe in my deicion and do what i choose to do, i won't care about the consequence anymore. Why should i care so much, when you don't even care and give a damn to it. I should treat my brain better :) " 
" Saying is always easier than doing, so stop trying to act as if you know everything and just shut up and listen to me for once. Just once will do, can you? Hahs, i doubt you can, you are just trying to judge? Talking to you is always making me feeling very tired, you are trying to defend for one person while i'm trying to defend for another person, we will just end up quarrelling, ain't we? "
" Will the good things really happen? I hope so, i'm so sick and tired of getting stuck in these type of situations. I always believe, it takes two hands to clap, so it is always two party that is at fault, not one. "
" Yup, i agree. If you ain't honest with me, there's nothing i can do? I can't force you to speak the truth. There's no point forcing you to admit that you are wrong when you don't wanna admit that you are wrong. Regardless it is a white lie or you lie to me by accident, i don't care. I just want you to admit to me that you lied. Is it that hard? "Sunday, November 21, 2010 @ 10:22 PM
" When she is not okay, you will take the first move to ask her, but when it comes to me, you just didn't do anything. Now i have realise, no matter how much you talk about that person and think for that person, that person wouldn't really do the same thing to you. "
" Maybe it's time for me to learn not to expect anything at all, so that when even a small thing that you least expect it will happen, will also somehow give you a surprise. Just like how you prioritise people in your heart, once the people you priorities didn't live up to your expectations, you will somehow feel disappointed but actually, the truth is you are the one that prioritise that person and that person didn't agree to make you as her first choice too. "
" I have clearly know where i stand, there's no way to change things. It will still become what it wants to be, no matter how much i will be there for you, or how much you will be there for me. Just one small sparkle, we will be fighting and quarrelling. " 
" I'm so tired of feeling getting stuck in between, worrying about this and that. I'm so afraid that if, IF, i did something or say something wrongly, i will make the whole thing worst. I'm forever worrying that i'm not the type of friend that you will turn to or i'm not the type of friend you would want to be with. " Sunday, October 31, 2010 @ 10:35 PM
" I don't know what i'm thinking, i don't know what i'm feeling. But i just know i have to get used to the enviroment when i can't feel your presence. I know that, i'm trying my very best to convince myself that, there's nothing to feel insecure about, there's nothing to feel sad about, there's nothing to feel angry about. "
" My wish now is, i hope everything will be over as i hate this feeling, this feeling of where i don't fit anywhere and i'm not important at all, i hate it. Stop using words on me, it doesn't work anymore, and if you are tired of trying to convince me, give up on me then. "
" You are who you are, you are special, don't try to change just because others say something negative about you. People love the way cause you are you, special. "WHAT'S WRONG? Maybe nothing is right in the first place?
Wednesday, October 27, 2010 @ 9:45 PM
" In the past, i know it very clearly in my heart that, no matter what happen i will be there for you. But now, i change my mind, i won't be there for you anymore as to you, i'm just nothing, just an unimportant person whom you treated as a spare tyre, come when you have no friends and go when you found some friends. "
" I wonder would you give a damn, when i say i don't care anymore and that's your business, your problem and it has nothing got to do with me anymore, from now on, whatever related to you is not my problems anymore. " 
" I'm always waiting for you, waiting for you to make the first move as i don't know when are you feeling happy or when are you feeling piss off. As when you are happy, you will treat me nice but when you are feeling piss you, you treat me like shit. " 
" Eveything is already in the past, i shouldn't think about it anymore as no matter how hard i try, i know there's no way i can rewind back the time and change the things that is going to happen. "Wednesday, October 20, 2010 @ 10:23 PM
EXAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMS ARE FINALLY OVER! :D In the progress of waiting for results :(
Marvellous much :/
Decided to went back to school as i'm sucha goodgood girl but ended up kena caught, sad ttm. -.- Head to have lunch at jurong point with ye thidar khaing and sheryl koh! :D Brought lots of friendship bands, hahs, we are bonding! :DDDDDDDDDD
I want to get promoted as well as good results, I WANT BOTH!
